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Candace Plattor, M.A.Registered Clinical Counsellor
Candace Plattor, M.A.
Registered Clinical Counsellor
If nothing ever changed, there would be no butterflies.

September 20, 2019 by Candace Plattor

Loving Someone with an Addiction: A Life of Chaos

Loving an Addict, A Life of Chaos

Whether your addicted loved one is a parent, a child, a partner, friend, or colleague, loving someone who is actively engaging in addictive behaviours is one of the most difficult ways to live. This is because addicts who continue to be involved with their own self-destructive patterns typically experience many emotional highs and lows, creating a virtual roller coaster of fantasy followed by severe despondency, remorse, and self-loathing, with every conceivable emotion in between.

Addicts often develop physical and financial problems as well, which usually result from long periods of a variety of stresses as well as their failure to take good care of themselves holistically. Unfortunately, if you love an addict, you are likely to experience many of these emotional, physical, and financial issues as well.

The Three Stages of Addiction

In the beginning stage of addiction, people generally feel they can take or leave the potentially problematic substance or behaviour. For example, a person considers himself to be a “social” user or drinker, able to indulge in alcohol and/or other drugs only recreationally. Or, a woman may tell herself she simply enjoys going to the mall or to the casino now and then—no harm in that, is there?

Later, in the progressive stage, people feel the need to engage more and more in the preferred substances or behaviours, but they remain in denial about how far the addiction has progressed. This is seen in situations where a person will be imbibing whatever is in sight, sometimes to the point of blacking out or engaging in other dangerous behaviours. Or a gambler has increased her visits to the casino—and often her spending limit—and may even stop on the way home from work several nights in a row.

In the advanced stage of addiction, the consequences are much more evident for the addict, such as more and more of the mind-altering substances are now required to achieve the same effect, and methods of procuring the drugs and alcohol are becoming more frequent and dangerous. Health and financial problems increase and the addict may lose his job. For a gambling addict, weekend trips to the casino have increased to at least once a day with far more losses than wins to show for it. The addict’s financial difficulties are now overwhelming. When you love an addict, it’s important to acknowledge what is truly going on with them in order to begin the process of releasing yourself from the life of chaos you are undoubtedly living. Ask yourself where on this continuum is the addict you love, and how long has this been the case?

Are You Isolating Yourself Because of the Addict in Your Life?

If you are in a significant relationship with an addict, you probably don’t talk in depth with others about what you are going through because of the shame and guilt you may be feeling about your situation.

You may also feel a sense of isolation, not realizing that there are other people who are in exactly the same predicaments, experiencing exactly the same feelings you are. It may be difficult for you to maintain some of your relationships because you do not want anyone to know what is really going on in your life.

Be honest with yourself, are there folks you are no longer in contact with because of an addicted loved one? Are there things you once enjoyed doing that you no longer do? Isolation is a slippery slope and will only increase the chaos you are living with every day, and using it as a means of emotional self-protection is a strategy that rarely works. If you find that you have been doing this, you may want to begin to reach out, because your secrets will only continue to keep you sick.

It’s Not That Bad, Is It? Yes, It Is!

A practicing addict’s denial can often be a mirror for a loved one’s denial—in fact, you may have become an expert in convincing yourself that things aren’t as bad as they are, simply to justify staying in such a difficult and draining relationship.

Perhaps you have lived this way for so long that it seems normal to you. It’s possible that you may already be so used to the lies, the deception, the manipulation, and the self-absorption of your addicted loved one that living like this has become, in effect, your comfort zone.

To eventually be able to come out of your comfort zone of denial, you will first need to identify and acknowledge what has become the dysfunctional “norm” that you now live with. Do you routinely put up with raging, threats and manipulation from the addict in your life? If you’re like the loved ones I regularly see in my practice when I begin to work with them, the answer is yes.  And no one should have to live like that.

Helping versus Enabling

If you’re like most people who find themselves in relationships with practicing addicts, you no longer understand what a “healthy normal” is, nor do you have the tools to make that your reality. And because of this lack of tools, you have likely made some missteps that have inadvertently allowed the addict in your life to continue his or her unhealthy behaviours.

For example, do you shield the addict from things he or she doesn’t want to face about themselves? Do you walk on eggshells for fear of setting off the addict’s anger? Do you make excuses or cover up for them? Do you lie to them to avoid an argument? Those are all enabling behaviours.

Focusing on Yourself

When you begin to take positive action to remedy the situation, you become part of the solution rather than being part of the problem. The most important thing you will need to do is learn how to focus on yourself. As the loved one of a person with addictive behaviours, most of your energy has been spent worrying about and placating someone else, perhaps trying to solve their increasing emotional, financial, and physical health problems. This may feel like the path of least resistance, but in reality you are helping to keep the addiction going.

Focusing more on others than you do on yourself is a form of codependency. Your own recovery from participating in dysfunctional behaviours will truly begin when you start to focus your attention and energy away from the addicted person and onto yourself.

If you are like most people who are in relationships with addicts, looking after yourself first will be a novel concept for you. But as you start taking better care of yourself and treating yourself with more respect, you will experience the ripple effect of other people in your life respecting you more as well. Remember—you are teaching others how to treat you by showing them how you are treating yourself. As well, as you begin to live your own best life, you will begin to role-model for your addicted loved ones how to live in healthier ways—a win-win situation for all who are involved.

Filed Under: Addiction and Codependency Tagged With: Addiction, Addiction in the family, Helping vs. Enabling, loving an addict, self-care

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  1. Charmaine says

    September 20, 2019 at 5:32 pm

    Candace,
    Wanted to share this letter that I wrote to my daughter earlier this month. What caused me to turn the corner of acceptance was a series of incidences that left me shaken but finally able to bring both my mind and my heart into harmony. The pain, uncertainty, and sadness remain, but they no longer dominate my life. Thank you for helping me along the way.
    Charmaine

    My Sweet One,
    I am writing to you today because if I talk to you, I will either end up screaming and cursing at you or crying so hard that I will not be able to speak at all.

    As I told you the last time we spoke, I am tired. We’ve been at this dance of addiction for over 30 years now, and I can’t do it anymore.

    I knew that day so long ago when you came running to me with tears on your face asking why your father didn’t love you, that the wound he had given your little heart and mind would not heal quickly. You waiting for your father to pick you up for your weekly visit and not showing up or even calling once again had planted the seeds of unworthiness within you. Oh, how my heart ached for my precious baby girl and my rage at your father for so cruelly hurting you knew no bounds.

    And so began our journey of addiction, you with drugs and me with control. I believed that if I could just find the right combination of words, actions, thoughts, and/or prayers, I could fix the wounds that had been inflicted on you. I hoped that we could have the kind of close, loving relationship that I’d never had with my mother. Boy Howdy was I wrong.

    I was not wrong for wanting to have that type of relationship with you, but how I went about it was ass-backward. At first, I thought that I could make your father be a good father to you. That was my first painful lesson in, “I can’t control anybody but me.”

    I had to let go of so many ways of thinking and believing that at times I wondered if I’d ever become whole again. Getting both my heart and mind on the same page was challenging. For me, understanding came quickly; it was the acceptance that held me back. I believed that a mother always protected her child at any cost. I thought that that was what a true mother’s love looked and acted like. I was wrong. I learned that a loving mother loves herself first, sets the example for her children of what that means and consistently practices self-care, self-discipline, growth, and love towards herself and others to the best of her ability. Because if a mother does not love herself, she cannot truly love anyone else.

    I loved you before you were born, fell in love with you after you were born, and will love you forever. That will never change. What has changed is how I show you that I love you. Where before I only loved myself halfway, now I’m beginning to love myself fully. It means that I allow you to be the owner of your own life and me of mine. That I accept my failures and successes without shame, guilt, or blame and allow you the same experience. That I finally accept I did not cause, cannot control or fix your addiction, that it is yours and yours alone to recover from. That the most loving thing that I can do is to tell you the truth as I know it and allow you to lead your life without my interference.

    I will always be your best and biggest cheerleader when you decide that your life is worth living sober.

    Mom
    9/9/2019

  2. Michele says

    September 23, 2019 at 2:56 pm

    I am devouring everything written and you tube past and present. I am an ACOA that avoided alcohol and people with substance misuse issues that whole time. Now one year and a bit into a relationship with an addict I am dumbfounded how I got here after all that time vehemently against any relationship with that in it. He is harmful to himself and is not violent. He passes out and loses time. My boundary is this wastes my time and energy. In one weekend of watching Candace I have boundaries over at what point I will leave when I go see him. No longer held hostage to the fear of what will happen to him if I go home and putting my needs as a priority. I am exhausted caretaking him. Most people tell me I should leave. I don’t know how to do that. He is alone and isolated. So am I. I have codependent work to do.

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